She I do not

Today I saw her. I had not seen her for one week. And we did not even talk to each other in the midtime. I still have feelings for her, it is undeniable. But I got angry now. Because she can be mean. Like today, when she did not talk, even look at me. Just walk out, like I do not exist. For her, I really do not. I have tried, a lot, but it was bullshit. I really do not know why she was friendly sometimes. She talked to me like I was a human being. But I know her now. And she is bipolar. Tripolar, I guess. There is no how someone be friendly and then act like you are a tree. Even though I am in love with her, I do not want her colors anymore. I need to free. Until six months ago we were nothing, only colleagues: the Kind that only say hi in the corridor. I was okay with that. We were nothing and I still want to be nothing with her. I think I would be happier this way. We are happier when we have nothing to sorry. Right now, I am sorry that I tried to get out of the nothing we were. But today I also had good news. Now I am on vacation. I can sleep more, read more and So on. Moreover, I met my buddy Igor. It was the last time I was going to see him this years, so it was special, made me happy. I listen to him and forget my stuff whilst. In addition, I will spend almost three months without seeing her. So I guess I will be able to get free of this craziness which people call feelings. And I am very optimistic.